it's so easy to feel insignificant. You simply allow the carefully constructed Ego and Super Ego to fall away a little, the armour you build up to avoid feeling the true mediocrity of your life.
The you get to thinking fantastic thing- like if you were to get raped, if you were to fall terrible terminally ill, if you were to offer someone the ultimate choice, you or The Dream, where would you stand in terms of the people who you deem important. Somehow, family always seems to be the ones whose opinions matter the least...because you already know what they'll say. That's at least a boring given.
Then you might come across someone fabulously talented, someone who writes expressing feelings you never even thought to encapsulate, or someone who sings so beautifully it bring unwitting tears to the eyes of the listeners who unknowingly hush up to hear better. Then you're hit with you as you are-nice enough, OK too, a good person maybe even a special person or missable to some, but just that and nothing more.
An ordinary Joe. And soon the people whose opinions you're sadly unaware of, will reliaze that too.
Up until you strap up with your armour again, it's enough to keep you thinking about it.
Sometime when you are feeling important;
ReplyDeleteSometime when your ego's in bloom;
Sometime when you take for granted,
You're the best qualified in the room.
Sometime when you feel that your going
Would leave an unfillable hole;
Just follow this simple instruction,
And see how it humbles your soul.
Take a bucket and fill it with water,
Put your hand in it up to the wrist;
Pull it out and the hole that's remaining,
Is a measure of how you will be missed.
You may splash all you please when you enter,
You can stir up the water galore;
But stop and you'll find in a minute,
That it looks quite the same as before.
The moral in this quaint example
Is to do just the best that you can;
Be proud of yourself, but remember,
There's no indispensable man.
-Anonymous
It's funny you should write about insignificance.I dream those dreams. Wondering if I have a week to live, who will be with me?!Sometimes, a kind of self-pity takes over don't you think?
ARE YOU TRYING TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER?! Rosh, I was expecting some kind words along the lines of "I may miss you" ;)Self-pity, yes. But we must overcome. The armour, like I always tell you...once it's on,the powers of regression take over and for a few weeks even months, you feel like when you take your hand out of the water, there'll at least be some MARK that you were there.
ReplyDeleteBut you're completely right, there is NO indispensable man. Or woman. btw, poem, where from?
Um, I thought I'd just say I miss you. But, how boring ;)
ReplyDeleteI think it was in one of those random fowards that I actually liked =D
Aw. I miss you too :)
ReplyDeleteOh. I like it.